When we laid ourselves, we just can't help thinking about how lonely pathetic miserable life are. We have no passion or even compassion... Even when we looked at a lot things that we wrote to make ourselves more alive than they actually are, we just cannot be more ecstatic about our everydays... Then we become this horrible person and suddenly it all felt numb. We feel numb.
Words will fail, friends will be gone. And for just moment, which we felt as if it was forever, we are losers on our own universe. We listen to our cries everyday, we try harder to let go, we pretend that everything will be okay if we just close our eyes. In fact we don't.. Everything won't be okay...
Life ain't easy with eyes closed.. Reality is no easier to be faced with eyes opened.. It won't be... Everytime we wipe tears from our face, we just felt nothing day by day.. And we experienced the hurt feelings at most until now we can't feel them again, and then we become numb..
Stairway to Heaven - Grey's Anatomy season 5 episode 13 "Meredith Grey & Derek Sheperd"
Meredith: I know you don't understand me. I don't understand me. I wanted to show him compassion. That's why I went. That's the reason. And it was horrible... it was horrible. Derek: It's okay.
Stairway To Heaven - Grey's Anatomy Season 5 Episode 13 "Isobel Stevens & Denny Duquette"
Denny (narrating): Heaven. Hell. Limbo. No-one even knows where we're going. Or what's waiting for us when we get there. But the one thing we can say, with absolute certainty, is that there are moments that take us to another place. Moments of Heaven on Earth. And maybe for now, that's all we need to know.
Izzie: Heaven and hell. Denny: Yes. Izzie: You're here. Denny: Yes. Izzie: No... you're not here for me, you're here for me... you're here for me.
Izzie: Leave... Leave! Denny: I can go now because, you know, but it's your choice, you get to choose, but Izz if I go I don't know if I can come back. If I go.... Izzie: In a choice between heaven and hell I choose heaven, I choose life! Go!
Denny: I loved you so much... I loved you so much, that when I got to comeback for you I thought... your my heaven, but maybe... I'm your hell. Izzie: I'm sick... I'm sick aren't I? And instead of telling me ... instead of telling me to save my life... You son of a bitch! You selfish son of a bitch! I hate you... I hate you! Denny: I didn't know if... that there was a chance, miracles happen. Medical miracles happen everyday! And you said that, you said that yourself!
Denny (narrating): I believe in heaven. I also believe in hell. I've never seen either but I believe they exist. They have to exist. Because without a heaven, without a hell, we're all just headed for limbo.
Tidak bisa tidur dan memutuskan bangun dari tempat tidur dan menulis... Apa sih yang saya pikirkan sampe tidak bisa tidur? Jawab: 1. Kolokium dan skripsi? Tampaknya saya sudah mulai menunjukkan kegilaan dan frustrasi tingkat tinggi sebab kolokium dan skripsi akan terjadi di semester 7 dan 8 sedangkan saya masih belum memulai semester 6.... 2. Kenapa saya begitu merana? Ini lagi ini lagi, ya tampaknya saya akan segera membutuhkan psychiatrist
Di kala semua orang sudah akan bekerja dan menjadi lebih mandiri, saya masih akan menyelesaikan kuliahnya. Lagi-lagi tetap dipandang rendah karena label "Ilmu Komunikasi" dan "4 tahun atau lebih"...
Yang didengar kebanyakan orang pasti "Lulus lama", yang dibanggakan orang pasti "lulus cepat", "langsung dapet kerjaan". Ahh, lagi-lagi topik dan omongan klise.. Tapi lagi-lagi tidak pernah akan ada jalan keluarnya...
Suatu saat mungkin semuanya akan 'worth it'.. Toh hidup cuman sekali... Cobalah apapun yang ada di dunia before you actually die... Main gila sekarang, ya sudah main gila saja... Tapi tentu tau konsekuensi yang akan ditanggung... Ayo Main gila!!
We, human, had absolutely no right to say 'fuck'...
Music Playlist this weekend: 1. Tonight I Wanna Cry by Keith Urban 2. Mine to Remember by WAZ 3. Closer by Joshua Radin 4. Ye Qu by Jay Chou 5. Iris by Goo Goo Dolls 6. Gotta Go My Own Way - Vanessa Hudgens
* Richard Jenkins in “The Visitor” (Overture Films) * Frank Langella in “Frost/Nixon” (Universal) * Sean Penn in “Milk” (Focus Features) * Brad Pitt in “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.) * Mickey Rourke in “The Wrestler” (Fox Searchlight)
Performance by an actor in a supporting role
* Josh Brolin in “Milk” (Focus Features) * Robert Downey Jr. in “Tropic Thunder” (DreamWorks, Distributed by DreamWorks/Paramount) * Philip Seymour Hoffman in “Doubt” (Miramax) * Heath Ledger in “The Dark Knight” (Warner Bros.) * Michael Shannon in “Revolutionary Road” (DreamWorks, Distributed by Paramount Vantage)
Performance by an actress in a leading role
* Anne Hathaway in “Rachel Getting Married” (Sony Pictures Classics) * Angelina Jolie in “Changeling” (Universal) * Melissa Leo in “Frozen River” (Sony Pictures Classics) * Meryl Streep in “Doubt” (Miramax) * Kate Winslet in “The Reader” (The Weinstein Company)
Performance by an actress in a supporting role
* Amy Adams in “Doubt” (Miramax) * Penélope Cruz in “Vicky Cristina Barcelona” (The Weinstein Company) * Viola Davis in “Doubt” (Miramax) * Taraji P. Henson in “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.) * Marisa Tomei in “The Wrestler” (Fox Searchlight)
Best animated feature film of the year
* “Bolt” (Walt Disney), Chris Williams and Byron Howard * “Kung Fu Panda” (DreamWorks Animation, Distributed by Paramount), John Stevenson and Mark Osborne * “WALL-E” (Walt Disney), Andrew Stanton
Achievement in art direction
* “Changeling” (Universal), Art Direction: James J. Murakami, Set Decoration: Gary Fettis * “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), Art Direction: Donald Graham Burt, Set Decoration: Victor J. Zolfo * “The Dark Knight” (Warner Bros.), Art Direction: Nathan Crowley, Set Decoration: Peter Lando * “The Duchess” (Paramount Vantage, Pathé and BBC Films), Art Direction: Michael Carlin, Set Decoration: Rebecca Alleway * “Revolutionary Road” (DreamWorks, Distributed by Paramount Vantage), Art Direction: Kristi Zea, Set Decoration: Debra Schutt
Achievement in cinematography
* “Changeling” (Universal), Tom Stern * “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), Claudio Miranda * “The Dark Knight” (Warner Bros.), Wally Pfister * “The Reader” (The Weinstein Company), Chris Menges and Roger Deakins * “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), Anthony Dod Mantle
Achievement in costume design
* “Australia” (20th Century Fox), Catherine Martin * “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), Jacqueline West * “The Duchess” (Paramount Vantage, Pathé and BBC Films), Michael O’Connor * “Milk” (Focus Features), Danny Glicker * “Revolutionary Road” (DreamWorks, Distributed by Paramount Vantage), Albert Wolsky
Achievement in directing
* “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), David Fincher * “Frost/Nixon” (Universal), Ron Howard * “Milk” (Focus Features), Gus Van Sant * “The Reader” (The Weinstein Company), Stephen Daldry * “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), Danny Boyle
Best documentary feature
* “The Betrayal (Nerakhoon)” (Cinema Guild), A Pandinlao Films Production, Ellen Kuras and Thavisouk Phrasavath * “Encounters at the End of the World” (THINKFilm and Image Entertainment), A Creative Differences Production, Werner Herzog and Henry Kaiser * “The Garden” A Black Valley Films Production, Scott Hamilton Kennedy * “Man on Wire” (Magnolia Pictures), A Wall to Wall Production, James Marsh and Simon Chinn * “Trouble the Water” (Zeitgeist Films), An Elsewhere Films Production, Tia Lessin and Carl Deal
Best documentary short subject
* “The Conscience of Nhem En” A Farallon Films Production, Steven Okazaki * “The Final Inch” A Vermilion Films Production, Irene Taylor Brodsky and Tom Grant * “Smile Pinki” A Principe Production, Megan Mylan * “The Witness - From the Balcony of Room 306” A Rock Paper Scissors Production, Adam Pertofsky and Margaret Hyde
Achievement in film editing
* “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), Kirk Baxter and Angus Wall * “The Dark Knight” (Warner Bros.), Lee Smith * “Frost/Nixon” (Universal), Mike Hill and Dan Hanley * “Milk” (Focus Features), Elliot Graham * “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), Chris Dickens
Best foreign language film of the year
* “The Baader Meinhof Complex” A Constantin Film Production, Germany * “The Class” (Sony Pictures Classics), A Haut et Court Production, France * “Departures” (Regent Releasing), A Departures Film Partners Production, Japan * “Revanche” (Janus Films), A Prisma Film/Fernseh Production, Austria * “Waltz with Bashir” (Sony Pictures Classics), A Bridgit Folman Film Gang Production, Israel
Achievement in makeup
* “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), Greg Cannom * “The Dark Knight” (Warner Bros.), John Caglione, Jr. and Conor O’Sullivan * “Hellboy II: The Golden Army” (Universal), Mike Elizalde and Thom Floutz
Achievement in music written for motion pictures (Original score)
* “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.),Alexandre Desplat * “Defiance” (Paramount Vantage), James Newton Howard * “Milk” (Focus Features), Danny Elfman * “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), A.R. Rahman * “WALL-E” (Walt Disney), Thomas Newman
Achievement in music written for motion pictures (Original song)
* “Down to Earth” from “WALL-E” (Walt Disney), Music by Peter Gabriel and Thomas Newman, Lyric by Peter Gabriel * “Jai Ho” from “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), Music by A.R. Rahman, Lyric by Gulzar * “O Saya” from “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), Music and Lyric by A.R. Rahman andMaya Arulpragasam
Best motion picture of the year
* “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), A Kennedy/Marshall Production, Kathleen Kennedy, Frank Marshall and Ceán Chaffin, Producers * “Frost/Nixon” (Universal), A Universal Pictures, Imagine Entertainment and Working Title Production,Brian Grazer, Ron Howard and Eric Fellner, Producers * “Milk” (Focus Features), A Groundswell and Jinks/Cohen Company Production, Dan Jinks and Bruce Cohen, Producers * “The Reader” (The Weinstein Company), A Mirage Enterprises and Neunte Babelsberg Film GmbH Production, Nominees to be determined * “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), A Celador Films Production,Christian Colson, Producer
Best animated short film
* “La Maison en Petits Cubes” A Robot Communications Production, Kunio Kato * “Lavatory - Lovestory” A Melnitsa Animation Studio and CTB Film Company Production, Konstantin Bronzit * “Oktapodi” (Talantis Films) A Gobelins, L’école de l’image Production, Emud Mokhberi and Thierry Marchand * “Presto” (Walt Disney) A Pixar Animation Studios Production, Doug Sweetland * “This Way Up”, A Nexus Production, Alan Smith and Adam Foulkes
Best live action short film
* “Auf der Strecke (On the Line)” (Hamburg Shortfilmagency), An Academy of Media Arts Cologne Production, Reto Caffi * “Manon on the Asphalt” (La Luna Productions), A La Luna Production, Elizabeth Marre and Olivier Pont * “New Boy” (Network Ireland Television), A Zanzibar Films Production, Steph Green and Tamara Anghie * “The Pig” An M & M Production, Tivi Magnusson and Dorte Høgh * “Spielzeugland (Toyland)” A Mephisto Film Production, Jochen Alexander Freydank
Achievement in sound editing
* “The Dark Knight” (Warner Bros.), Richard King * “Iron Man” (Paramount and Marvel Entertainment), Frank Eulner and Christopher Boyes * “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), Tom Sayers * “WALL-E” (Walt Disney), Ben Burtt and Matthew Wood * “Wanted” (Universal),Wylie Stateman
Achievement in sound mixing
* “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), David Parker, Michael Semanick, Ren Klyce and Mark Weingarten * “The Dark Knight” (Warner Bros.), Lora Hirschberg, Gary Rizzo and Ed Novick * “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), Ian Tapp, Richard Pryke and Resul Pookutty * “WALL-E” (Walt Disney),Tom Myers, Michael Semanick and Ben Burtt * “Wanted” (Universal), Chris Jenkins, Frank A. Montaño and Petr Forejt
Achievement in visual effects
* “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), Eric Barba, Steve Preeg, Burt Dalton and Craig Barron * “The Dark Knight” (Warner Bros.), Nick Davis, Chris Corbould, Tim Webber and Paul Franklin * “Iron Man” (Paramount and Marvel Entertainment), John Nelson, Ben Snow, Dan Sudick and Shane Mahan
Adapted screenplay
* “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), Screenplay by Eric Roth, Screen story by Eric Roth and Robin Swicord * “Doubt” (Miramax), Written by John Patrick Shanley * “Frost/Nixon” (Universal), Screenplay by Peter Morgan * “The Reader” (The Weinstein Company), Screenplay by David Hare * “Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), Screenplay by Simon Beaufoy
Original screenplay
* “Frozen River” (Sony Pictures Classics), Written by Courtney Hunt * “Happy-Go-Lucky” (Miramax), Written by Mike Leigh * “In Bruges” (Focus Features), Written by Martin McDonagh * “Milk” (Focus Features), Written by Dustin Lance Black * “WALL-E” (Walt Disney), Screenplay by Andrew Stanton, Jim Reardon, Original story by Andrew Stanton, Pete Docter
Rules: 1. Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. 2. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged,listing their names and why you chose them. 3. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
so, here it goes.
(Actually I've done it before, but it's absolutely fun to do it once again)
1. As Silviana said, and I quote "I know if u re-post it, it's gonna be a huge american-TV-serial blown up!", well I'm a huge fan of some TV series, such as Grey's Anatomy, LOST, Desperate Housewives, Brothers and Sisters, House, and so on. Can't help it!
2. I loathe public speaking. In my whole life, I've never felt that speaking in front of public is easy. It's stressful to me, particularly when I do it in front of people I know. The public-speaking-phobia started since I was a little and I still couldn't conquer them even now when I took Communication Science as a major. I blush easily as well...
3. I'd rather write than speak. But now it occurs to me that I'm not really good at writing either.
4. I'm in love with melancholy indie music
5. I'm a melancholic-phlegmatic creature
6. I'm unbelievably the most pessimist person in the world
7. I'm really into medical since term 2, which is way too late. So I never had a chance to pursue a career as a Medical Doctor or surgeon. I should just dream out loud. (I already chose my specialty which is cardiothoracic surgeon or general surgeon) CRAP!
8. I am collecting original CDs and most of them are bought by my own money, because my parents wont allow me to buy. So, the newest one is still Mamma Mia OST.
9. I STILL want to get a degree from Australian or American college...
10. I'm such a silly person and I get bullied for that.
11. I have HUGE hope and dream of becoming Hollywood freakin' scriptwriter and fashion freakin' journalist. Ooh, and get the Oscar! yeah right
12. I exaggerate and sarcastically wrote some of my previous article. I should be a yellow journalist. (I'm exaggerating right now)
13. I try like hell to finish my homeworks/exams/tests
14. I make quotes and I mean them
15. People said I'm smart/clever/diligent/know
ledgeable. But I don't feel like one.
16. I prefer magazines to novels. They bore me..
Tagged people: 1. Levina, she would love to do this 2. Acha, let me know you better 3. Vivi, she said she didn't like anything 4. Eve, let me know if you had changed 5. Cindy, please OPEN the facebook and see your name here!!! 6. Agnes, you'll love this! 7. Kak Butet, if you have time please 8. Rosalyn, great pal everywhere everytime 9. Bu Fanny, my hilarious teacher and supportive friend 10. Miss Fefe, show us different side of yours! 11. Dina, my happy Gloria 12. Pipit, love to know what you think 13. Ella, you have a lot to tell me 14. Schon, way better writer than I am 15. Asri, my music dictionary 16. Karin, we don't meet so often so please please
66th Annual Golden Globe Awards - Winner Lists (thanx to Sapphire to sum up the list)
Best Motion Picture - Drama Winner: Slumdog Millionaire (2008)
Best Performance by an Actor in a Motion Picture - Drama Winner: Mickey Rourke for The Wrestler (2008)
Best Television Series - Drama Winner: "Mad Men" (2007)
Best Performance by an Actress in a Motion Picture - Drama Winner: Kate Winslet for Revolutionary Road (2008)
Best Motion Picture - Musical or Comedy Winner: Vicky Cristina Barcelona (2008)
Best Performance by an Actor in a Motion Picture - Musical or Comedy Winner: Colin Farrell for In Bruges (2008)
Best Director - Motion Picture Winner: Danny Boyle for Slumdog Millionaire (2008)
Best Performance by an Actress in a Television Series - Musical or Comedy Winner: Tina Fey for "30 Rock" (2006)
Best Original Score - Motion Picture Winner: Slumdog Millionaire (2008) - A.R. Rahman
Best Television Series - Musical or Comedy Winner: "30 Rock" (2006)
Best Performance by an Actor in a Mini-Series or a Motion Picture Made for Television Winner: Paul Giamatti for "John Adams" (2008)
Best Performance by an Actor in a Television Series - Musical or Comedy Winner: Alec Baldwin for "30 Rock" (2006)
Best Screenplay - Motion Picture Winner: Slumdog Millionaire (2008) - Simon Beaufoy
Best Performance by an Actress in a Mini-Series or a Motion Picture Made for Television Winner: Laura Linney for "John Adams" (2008)
Best Foreign Language Film Winner: Vals Im Bashir (2008)
Best Performance by an Actor in a Supporting Role in a Motion Picture Winner: Heath Ledger for The Dark Knight (2008)
Best Mini-Series or Motion Picture Made for Television Winner: "John Adams" (2008)
Best Performance by an Actress in a Motion Picture - Musical or Comedy Winner: Sally Hawkins for Happy-Go-Lucky (2008)
Best Animated Film Winner: WALL·E (2008)
Best Performance by an Actress in a Television Series - Drama Winner: Anna Paquin for "True Blood" (2007)
Best Performance by an Actor in a Television Series - Drama Winner: Gabriel Byrne for "In Treatment" (2008)
Best Performance by an Actress in a Supporting Role in a Series, Mini-Series or Motion Picture Made for Television Winner: Laura Dern for Recount (2008) (TV)
Best Performance by an Actor in a Supporting Role in a Series, Mini-Series or Motion Picture Made for Television Winner: Tom Wilkinson for "John Adams" (2008)
Best Original Song - Motion Picture Winner: The Wrestler (2008)("The Wrestler")
Best Performance by an Actress in a Supporting Role in a Motion Picture Winner: Kate Winslet for The Reader (2008)
NOTES: -House kalah!
-Baju Miley Cyrus menyenangkan
-Kate Winslet dateng sama Leonardo Di Caprio dan says "I've loved you for thirteen years" waktu acceptance speech yang lmyn dramatis
-Kate Winslet, Drew Barrymoore, Anna Paquin tambah kurussss
-Jonas Bros outfitnya aneh
- Vanessa Hudgens cantik dengan rambut baru yang manis dan Zac Efron rambutnya klimis
-Olivia Wilde a.k.a. Thirteen bajunya juga manis dengan pink arumanis
-Rumer Willis is this year's Miss Golden Globe
-Jennifer Morisson model bajunya bagus sayang warna biru elektriknya kurang cocok...
-Eva Longoria was the only housewife who came, she presented an award
-Brad Pitt kok dikalahkan habis2an gini?
-Sacha Baron Cohen kasar dan mengundang glegar para audience
-TR Knight officially kicked out from GA
-JLo cungkring
-Tom Cruise lagi2 present award penting huh!
-Dress Heidi Klum terlalu fun untuk Heide Klum
-Cast Grey's Anatomy yang datang tampaknya cuma Patrick Dempsey
When people talk about Hollywood, movies, dramas, stars, or else, I've always thought about wonderful movies, talented actors, beautiful script, and even outrageous storyline. Well, I think it's fun to talk about awesomeness, so here it goes:
When I think about Hollywood greatest movie stars, I think of them: 1. Nicole Kidman 2. George Clooney 3. Hugh Jackman 4. Naomi Watts 5. Jennifer Connelly 6. Dakota Fanning 7. Leondardo DiCaprio 8. Jude Law 9. Meryl Streep 10. Jodie Foster 11. Johnny Depp 12. Brad Pitt 13. Tom Hanks 14. Julianne Moore 15. Angelina Jolie 16. Natalie Portman 17. Sean Penn 18. Felicity Huffman 19. Will Smith 20. Keira Knightley 21. Ben Affleck 22. Julia Roberts 23. Bruce Willis 24. Sandra Bullock 25. Charlize Theron (still listing)
When I think about Hollywood's best filmmaker (and that includes producer, director, scriptwriter, cinematographer,and so on), I give a nod for them: 1. Baz Luhrmann 2. Michael Bay 3. Steven Spielberg 4. Martin Scorsese 5. Woody Allen 6. Quentin Tarantino 7. M. Night Shyamalan 8. Ron Howard 9. Akiva Goldsman 10. Steven Soderbergh 11. J.J Abrams 12. Judd Appatow 13. Jerry Bruckheimer 14. Shonda Rimes 15. Tim Kring (still listing)
When I think about characters which have a strong emotional connections with me or just amazed me, my heart smiles for these names: 1. Kate Austen of Lost 2. Jack Shepard of Lost 3. George O'Malley of Grey's Anatomy 4. Dr. Izzie Stevens of Grey's Anatomy 5. Gregory House, MD of House 6. Claire Bennet of Heroes 7. Nora Walker of Brothers and Sisters 8. Cristina Yang of Grey's Anatomy 9. Miranda Bailey of Grey's Anatomy 10. Lexie Grey of Grey's Anatomy 11. Satine of Moulin Rouge 12. Christian of Moulin Rouge 13. Harry Stamper of Armageddon 14. Briony Tallis of Atonement 15. Peter Petrelli of Heroes 16. Hiro Nakamura of Heroes 17. Bree Van De Kamp / Hodge of Desperate Housewives 18. Lynette Scavo of Desperate Housewives 19. Charlie Pace of Lost 20. Meredith Grey of Grey's Anatomy (still listing)
Brave New World part 2 (Alex Karev and Izzie Stevens)
Alex Karev absolutely one of the characters who grew up on this season ( a lot)... After Rebecca, his psychotic girlfriend, leaves him, he's kinda confuse to find. Where is the love and who? As flashes are going before his eyes, he couldn't think any better. And then come another lonely soul. It is her, Isobel Stevens. So his past is again interfering himself. So, it is true that true love will never go anywhere else, at least when she's just two rooms away... No matter what they called it, best friends or whatever.
Alex: Listen. You had that heart patient and it reminded you of Denny and how bad you felt when you were lying on that bathroom floor. I get that! I get that you're scared. But you're not going to have to feel like that again. Because I'm not going to die, Izz. And I'm not gonna cheat on you, and I'm not gonna go anywhere! 'Cause, I think you're my best shot at... I think with you... you make me better. You make me wanna BE better. You make me want to be good. And I think I can. With you. I think I can. So I'm not going anywhere, and you can stop hiding. And if you wanna be scared that's okay just be scared with me. Be scared while you scrub in with me on my first solo surgery. Okay? Izzie: You love me.
And then she came, and then all doubts seemed to fade away. They knew it.
Izzie: And I know you care about me too and it's not too late for us. Alex: Get outta my room. Izzie: Admit it. I know you care about me too I know you do. I care about you. I care about you. I care about you. I care about you. I care about you! I-
Well, at least it was before the old fiance came back from the dead...
Denny: I'm really starting to not like that guy. Denny: Enough!
So, at least I've done one right thing in this holiday... Which was finishing one of my favorite series: GREY'S ANATOMY: SEASON 5.... Yay! So, besides my medical obsession that comes like a high tide on me, I came up with the idea of spending my quality time (*cough, holiday) watching surgeons on TV...
Watching a medical drama called House MD to me was like having another lessons, which is really what I've been trying to avoid in this precious holiday. Yes, precious! So, I was deciding that all I wanna do is having some relaxation, so I watch another lighter medical drama series called Grey's Anatomy (GA). GA season 5 is so much better comparing to previous season (season 4)...
Here's the list of the episodes I watch: 5.1-2 Dream a Little Dream of Me 5.3 Here Comes the Flood 5.4 Brave New World 5.5 Life During Wartime 5.6 Rise Up 5.7 These Ties That Bind 5.8 In the Midnight Hour 5.9 All By Myself
So, in this season Lexie Grey, so called "Little Grey" is having a hard time. It is not an easy situations to deal with. You see, she's Little Grey. So there will always be the Big Grey, which is Meredith. And when it comes to intern, it is as if they were little babies or kids who gets to learn and being stupider than all.. For Lexie, when it comes to love, she is a ghost. Even the most generous people doesn't feel she was there. So, this is more complicated as she thought, she's so much sloppier than she looks...
Lexie: [to George] Did you even ask for me? I helped decorate your stupid locker and you don't even see it! You don't see anything! I am such an idiot. And you are a jerk. You didn't even ASK for me? Screw you, Dr. O'Malley.
So maybe part of her is a superwoman. Well, she has a photographic memory. She could remember all things, I mean totally remembered them all. But the other side, she's just as dark as everybody is. So many love to give, and so many hope to lose... Lexie's half sister, who's a resident, pretend like she doesn't care. And even if she cares, Meredith herself couldn't careless about her life as well. So, Lexie Grey is now dark and twisty. She's a ghost. Definitely unseen and breakable.
Lexie: I forgive you. Meredith: Lexie Lexie: No. I forgive you. I forgive you for treating me like crap, and I forgive you for letting your friend treat me like crap.
For those who survives in their own lives. Just When I'd Given Up Dreaming by Ronan Keating
I was an island desperate and barren Praying for someone to save me Felt like an ocean drowning alone Searching for hope you once gave me
So what are we made of, what keeps us strong It's your love that carries me home
I wanted to let go and give up the fight Tell my heart it can stop beating You gave me a reason to believe in myself Just when I'd given up dreaming Just when I'd given up dreaming
You are my lifeline willing and able To guide me through every season Your heart is a beacon shining so bright It's your love that I follow home
So what are we made of, the answer is in Your whisper that hangs in the wind
I wanted to let go and give up the fight Tell my heart it can stop beating You gave me a reason to believe in myself Just when I'd given up dreaming
I close my eyes, I'm in your arms The space that's between us won't keep us apart Keep me in that special place in your heart And I won't be alone anymore Just when I'd give up dreaming
I wanted to let go and give up the fight Tell my heart it can stop beating You gave me a reason to believe in myself Just when I'd given up dreaming
Jadi begini, hari ini salah satu BFF saya ultah.. Natasha Benita utawa ACHA... Hihihi... Jadi begini, tanggal 6 Januari merupakan tanggal chaos alias tanggal di mana banyak yang ultah (mksdku lebih dari satu)... Di tanggal ini, yang ultah lagi selain Acha adalah adik saya sendiri, Elaine...
Jadi, setelah mengikuti rapat untuk kepanitiaan Journalism Clinic di kampus, saya pun kembali di rumah dengan keteparan saya... Pada sekitar jam 15.30, saya pulang ke rumah sambil tidur di mobil... Wah rasanya seperti tidak liburan saja... Sepertinya masih kayak kuliah... Eniwei, sebenarnya kami merencanakan (bukan kami tepatnya, tapi ehemnya Acha... Merencanakn surprise untuk teman kami itu.. Rencananya sudah dari jauh hari dan teman2 seperti Vivi, Levina, Henry sudah setuju...
Pada pukul 18.00an, saya dijemput Vivi yang di dalam mobilnya berisi si ehem, dan Henry... Nah, singkat cerita, surprise tersebut pun gagal karena si Mbok nya Acha (pembantunya) salah omong dan keceplosan bahwa "teman2 akan datang"... Wah, kita pun sedikit glegar... Sebab sebelumnya sudah dengan hati2 menjaga biar Acha ga sampe tau... FYI, Acha ini orangnya smart dan teliti, bahkan tampaknya selalu ada feeling bahwa akan terjadi 'sesuatu'...
Akhirnya kami pun masuk ke rumah Acha dan menghadiahinya dengan kue yang dibelikan oleh si ehem... Itu pun dibonusi dengan lilin yang tidak akan mati sampai pendek... Hehehe... Kami pun menyuruh Acha buat meniupnya sebanyak 20 kali setara dengan umurnya sekarang ini... Aheee. sekarang Acha juga sudah 20, sama kayak kita....
Just few hours ago, I switched on my TV and found that it was America's Next Top Model cycle 11, and it's MARATHON! Well, I got a bit late to watch them. There were down to five contestants and on the first time I see them, they were good actually! Nevertheless, I thought just three of them who stood out, by their personality and the fashion photographs as well. They're Samantha, McKey, and Analeigh.
Samantha, the blonde with the bubbly personality took some of great pictures. She's damn bold and creative, trying some new fierce pose... Then, Analeigh is a "commercial" pretty model who also took time enjoying herself in photoshoots. Sweet personality also has been her plus .. Well, McKey is really tall and have the signature look on herself. She's also energetic and fun during the photoshoots.
I love three of them and it's pretty awkward seeing that top three doesn't have any fights, envy, jealousy, or so.
Previous cycles I had watched seriously display some rough time during top three. The tension were always been very huge for the contestants. But not in cycle 11. Wow! Ah-maze-ing! It is so hard choosing one of them to be the number one. They're all talented, not boring at all, fierce, model-esque (in every kind of way, fashion and commercial) and totally have a signature styles themselves . Although I already knew who wins exactly...
Finally, they chose McKey and Sam over Analeigh to be top two... The runway is not so glamorous, not so entertaining considering the past few seasons there were always have a surprise and not easy to be forgotten. Such as Naima-Kahlen, Nicole-Nik, CariDee-Melrose, Saleisha-Chantal, even Danielle- Joanie... Well, everything always has flaw themselves.
Top two doesn't stood out on runway walk... Boo! So, it is time to deliberate by only using the photos... Well, I'm glad McKey won! But I also feel great if Sam won. Both of them has done a tremendous job on this cycle.
Jadi, sekarang sudah taun 2009, berganti tahun terasa cepat sekali...
Malam taun baru dihabiskan dengan menonton Grey's Anatomy season 5, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire di tipi sambil ketiduran (jadi cuman liat awal dan akhir saja), makan kue enak....
Setelah pada tahun 2008, saya itu:
1. Jauh lebih sarkastik dan sedikit mulai berani
2. Belajar banyak kesulitan dalam hidup
3. Mendapatkan banyak teman2 yang unik dan berbeda
4. Tahu rasanya menjadi seseorang yang berbeda
5. Masih malu dan pesimis tahap akut
6. Banyak mengeluh
7. Menjalani "gejala dini "Alzheimer's Disease dan Bipolar Disorder
8. Masih sangat kecewa pada diri sendiri dan lingkungan
9. Telah sedikit mensyukuri kelebihan diri yang sebelumnya tak tampak
10. Mulai mampu berbicara bahasa inggris dan menulis dalam bahasa inggris
Jadi, resolusi bagi tahun 2009 adalah: 1. Menjadi seseorang yang optimistik dan percaya rencana Tuhan
2. Belajar lebih banyak di bidang medical (lho?)
3. Belajar lebih banyak biar tidak ditipu rekan sejawat
4. Menjadi lebih berani untuk mengutarakan pendapat yang benar
5. Lebih sarkastik lagi dan won't let people look down on me
6. Tidak menghabiskan waktu mengobrol tentang keburukan, serta tidak terlalu suka sewot
7. Menabung agar bisa sekolah dan pergi ke luar negeri
8. Berdiet aga sampai ke taraf "berat badan kembali saat seperti taun 2007"
9. Belajar bahasa inggris
10. Mau dan mampu untuk berpresentasi di segala bidang yang menguntungkan dan menyenangkan
Ya, tampaknya tahun ini kerjanya harus lebih keras. Mengingat ternyata pada tahun lalu banyak juga perubahan yang saya alami, terutama sejak pertengahan tahun... I have to congratulate myself and I wish myself well in 2009..
I am Me, with all my courage, ego, hope, and my own dream, together with all my life, heart, my mind, and fate.. Somehow, I'm surviving, which humanize me.. Because of all the trying and struggling, sometimes I fall and some days God lift me up...
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I am Me, with all my courage, ego, hope, and my own dream, together with all my life, heart, my mind, and fate.. Somehow, I'm surviving, which humanize me.. Because of all the trying and struggling, sometimes I fall and some days God lift me up... 
