IZZIE
And so I couldn't remember
my memories reset in fine minutes apart
then you sit, yell, astonished
when it might be all said and done
i woke up with smile
and passed out
painful yet beautiful at most
Do Not Resuscitate
don't ever bring me back
let me go
would you?
although i never thought
i could end up here
like this
I want to remember me
being so close with you
and knowing that you love me
so that is what really saved me
so i know you are the one who catches me
when i fall and surrender
knowing I give up doesn't mean I give myself up
knowing I give up doesn't mean I let you walk away
I wish I could choose you over death
I have wishes and hopes
that shapes me for who I am
when I'm with you
GEORGE
Here I am
Lay still and wait
I wanted to tell you this is me
A shadow for you as always
The one that follows you
not just in daylight
but the most darkest time in night
I wanted to tell you I changed
and I hope we'll be okay
I hope you guys are doing good
Pray for me
As I catch up
I may not feel so alone anymore
I am a doer
I do, and I believe I do better
Please identify so many times
when I shared my tears with you
when I held you close
when I chose you
when you had nothing but me
Love me and remember me
for what we have done together
everyday and every nights
feel me
when you let me go
When two worlds collide
Look me in the eyes
I know we have to survive these
So sacrifice these quiet times
I know what it means
when I'm watching you
place wings and fly away
but I know we're strong
we are doers
I know we don't quit
we are so gonna breathe again
slow and tender we go
it may not be hand in hand
but I am sure
at least
one of us
is surviving
and even if one of us is leaving
by no means
I know at least I know you're my best friend
I've heard you
You've heard me
we are one
Labels: Grey's Anatomy, poetry, TV Series
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
1:22 AM

That is a special gift from me, a fan.
Come freakin' on, guys!
You finally have a beautiful wedding of yours, yourself!
You'll get through this!
Labels: Grey's Anatomy, Quote
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
6:59 PM
Good news for Meredith and Derek (of Grey's Anatomy) fans out there...
As we know, Mer-Der is going to have a lovely wedding!
So, tons of fans of GA has made tremendous jobs (including making blogs, sites, picture, countdown, and even gossips!).
And this is a blog that I found and so I share this for you...
dedicated to Mere-Der from fans
pretty sweet blog contains their love journey, remembering on-off relationship, even Izzie's blog (how sweet it is) and precious moments even SGH (Seattle Grace Hospital Guest Book)..
This is my favorite part of this blog...
SNEAK PEEK - SGH Guest Book ...........................................................................................................................................................................
“Hooray! You finally got engaged! You are going to have the most perfect wedding ever and I am so thrilled for you both! Best Wedding EVER! Xoxo”
--Izzie
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“I just want to say that I am so, so honored that you’ve asked me to be in the wedding. After all this time, you finally see me as a sister and… hold on… it’s really hard to type when you’re crying… I just… you know what? I’ll have to come back to this.”
-- Lexie
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“Good luck and stuff. I’d say something else but all this wedding crap kind of skeeves me out. All I ask is that somebody buys Shepherd a box of cereal as a wedding gift. Dude keeps eating mine.”
--Alex
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“I love a wedding! The flowers, the lace, the vows…makes a girl swoon. Now if only the government would legally recognize a marriage between two girls… Not that this should take away from your happy day. Just saying… CONGRATS!”
--Arizona
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“I wasn’t gonna sign this thing. I mean, I signed the last one and look how that ended up. And now that I look at what I just wrote, I’m pretty sure it’s a bad idea to mention the groom’s first marriage in the guestbook for his second. Where’s the “go back” button on this thing?”
--Mark Sloan
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“Okay. I’m back. And I’m not sure what else to say besides YAAAAAAAY. Go wedding! I can’t wait. Soooo excited. Really. Oooh, patient coding, gotta run. P.S. Could I put in an early request for the Electric Slide at the reception? Thanks.”
--Lexie
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“Congrats! And we’re not just saying that cause your our bosses and we want to scrub in on the craniotomy you have scheduled this after noon. Although it’d be cool – to scrub in. Like, really cool.”
--Steve, Megan, & the soon-to-be new addition.
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“Are you taking some time off for the honeymoon by any chance? Maybe… a lot of time off? I’m only asking because I kinda liked being the Chief’s neuro guy when you were off in the woods, so… Anyway. I would simply like to encourage you to take a honeymoon. A really long honeymoon.”
--Shadow Shepherd
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“Hey. Me again. I was just talking to O’Malley (not by choice. I’m stuck in the pit with him today) and – what the hell? He says that you getting married means you’re kicking me and Iz out of the house? Is that true? Cause if so, not cool. Not Fricking Cool."
-- Alex
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“Alex, they can’t kick us out. I have cancer.”
-- Izzie
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“It’s about time. I hope this doesn’t mean you two will turn into some old married couple that stays home and doesn’t hang out at dive bars anymore. I’d hate to lose you two as customers. You’re the only ones who pay your tabs.”
--Joe the Bartender
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“Free food, an open bar at the reception… I’m there! I mean, if I’m in invited. Cause I’d like to be. I’ll bring a nice gift. Or, as nice as I can afford on my salary. Please??”
--Intern Ryan
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“I didn’t know where else to go with this because you either aren’t getting my voice-mails or you’re simply choosing to ignore them, but – I really am pregnant, Derek. It’s yours. And I have a lawyer… HAHAHAHA. I swear, that never gets old. EVER.”
-- Nurse Rose
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““Mer, you couldn’t have found a better match. I am so happy for you. And to Dr. Shepherd, I just wanna say… take care of her. Cause if you don’t, you’ll have to answer to all of us.”
-- George
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“It’s about the hell TIME. Congratulations, you two
-- Bailey
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“This is great. Just… great. One of my top attendings marrying one of my top residents… Our very own Seattle Grace Wedding. I am as happy for you as I could be. And proud, of you both. Does my heart good.”
-- Richard
“P.S. And you’re welcome. For getting Meredith onto the right elevator.”
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Impressive! Can't wait to see them both walking down the aisle!
Labels: Grey's Anatomy, review
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
10:00 AM
Grey's Anatomy Season 5 - Elevator Love Letter
Cristina: I don't think ... I can't handle this after all. Owen: What, what do you mean, what are you saying? Cristina: I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. But I'm lying here in your arms, and I'm afraid to fall asleep.Meredith: I'm engaged. Cristina: I broke up with Owen.Cristina: Did her vitals remain stable the entire time? Meredith: Were there any spikes in her intracranial pressure? Alex: Was there any residual tumor? Bailey: Shepherd was able to resect all of the tumor. She'll be in packing view for about an hour. She's fine. Your friend is just fine, no thanks to any of you. Tomorrow, do better!Richard: What are you all doing out here? Alex: Waiting for Izzie, Sir. We're waiting. Richard: You're scared. I'm scared too.Meredith: I'm worried about you. Cristina: Meredith. Meredith: Choking. Cristina: Stop. Meredith: It's unacceptable. Cristina: Back off. Meredith: Hands around the neck. Cristina: Ring thrown in your face.Derek: Ok, clamp. I am ready to... no. Yes, ok. I am ready to buzz the superficial temporal artery. Tenting sutures. Bailey: There's no rush. You can take your time. Everyone here is on your side. Swinder: You sure that's gonna hold? With all that friable scar tissue. Bailey: Dr Swinder! Ah, actually I saw Dr. Shepherd do three different craniotomies last month, each with easily double the amount of friable tissue. They held just fine. Derek: Next, tenting suture please. Meredith: Surgery has started. Cristina: Hey, have they started the surgery yet? Alex: Yep. Intern: Dr. Grey, we were wondering did Dr. Stevens' surgery start yet? Or... Meredith: Keep it moving. No loitering in the OR hallway, that's the rule. Alex: If they wanna stay, let them stay. People are better than no people.Callie: Ok, so I get why I haven't been camped out at Izzie's beside holding her hand today, but... George: We're not talking about this. Callie: Why not? George: Maybe it's the fact that I asked Izzie a hundred times what was wrong, and she just ignored me. And then there's the fact that when she actually needed help she trusted Cristina. Of all people! Callie: And then there's the fact that she's your best friend and she might die on you. There's also that. Come on. We are going to go wait for Izzie. Come on. George! You were my husband and you slept with her. You are the reason that I wished her dead. You owe me this. You can lie to yourself all you want, but I know you. I loved you once, and I know you care if she lives or dies.Derek: We'll see you soon Dr. Stevens. Izzie: I hope so. Bailey: Know so. Izzie: Dr Bailey if something goes wrong... Bailey: It wont. Izzie: The scarf, I made it for you. Derek: It's a beautiful night to save lives. Let's get started.Derek: Meredith. Meredith: What are you doing? You're gonna have to re-scrub. Derek: I'm not ready. Meredith: Yes you are. Derek: I need to know that at least I have you, no matter what happens in there, i need to know. I need you to say yes. I need to know. Meredith: I can't say yes. Not if agreeing to be with you forever will make it ok if Izzie dies. I can't say yes. I love you, and you can do this. You can do this. I know you can.Richard: Ah, It's not a good time, he's still scrubbing in. Meredith: I know, it's just, ah, he should wear this. It's his ferry boat scrub cap. He loves ferry boats. Callie: I wished Izzie Stevens would die. I wished her dead every day, of every week, for I don't even know how long. I woke up every morning, wishing Izzie Stevens would die, and now... What kind of person wishes someone would die? What kind of doctor wishes, knowing how things happen. What kind of doctor wishes... Arizona: Are you in here, right now, praying for Izzie to die? Callie: No. I'm praying for her to live.
Meredith: Hey, How's Izzie? George: I don't know. Meredith: How's Izzie? Cristina: Why? Meredith: Have you been to see her? Cristina: No I've been working with Swinder all day. Alex: What? Meredith: Have you been to see Izzie? Alex: No, haven't you? Richard: Did you talk to Izzie about this yet? Considering you two are basically conceiving a child together today, don't you think you should talk with her about this? Alex: Look, you said she needed my contribution. Here's my contribution. Whatever.Alex: The Chief send you in here? Meredith: Nope. I offered to come in. In case you needed to talk. Alex: Hah, you think talking will help? You think a dixie cup full of my swimmers will make everything ok? It's crap. This is crap! You just can't go messing with peoples heads like that. Even if she freezes the embryo's do you think, you think we'll get a chance to use them? You think she'll still be here? YOU THINK SHE'LL SURVIVE ALL THIS? You think... I think...She told me... she told me she was seeing a ghost ok. And I'm so used to all the crazy chicks in my life, that I didn't even... I'm a doctor. A DOCTOR! And I didn't even think to... and now she's... this is wrong. This isn't how it's supposed to happen. Meredith: I know. Alex: It's crap! Meredith: I know. Alex: I hate this. Meredith: I know. Alex: This isn't... this isn't how we were supposed... this isn't how I wanted to do this. This isn't how Izzie and I were supposed to make a baby.Derek: Karev, I just reviewed Izzie's most recent MRI and it doesn't look like the tumors grown since her last scan, so that's good news. Do you have an questions or concerns that you'd like to discuss with me before we brief Izzie? Alex: Just try keeping her frontal lobe inside her skull this time. Bailey: Ok, as you know you have stage 4 metastatic melanoma. You have a lot of surgeries, and a lot of procedures lined up for you over the next few weeks. Richard: We've seen evidence of METS on your liver, so one of those surgeries Dr. Bailey and I will resect them. We also lined up Dr. Parker from OB to harvest as many healthy eggs as she can before you undergo any radiation. Izzie: Right. Babies. Bailey: Just leaving the option open for you if you want it. Derek: But our priority today is to address the temporal lobe METS on your brain. I'm surprised we didn't catch it sooner. This kind of thing can cause headaches, seizures and intense hallucinations. But, hopefully the legion has a clear margin so I can remove it all.Meredith: You're wearing a turtle neck under your scrubs. It's ugly. Not as ugly as the fact that you hugged him. You hugged him. Cristina: I get it. I hear you. Lets move on. Meredith: Turtle necks aren't ok. You're not ok, and your boyfriends not ok. Alex: Is your boyfriend ok? Meredith: What? Cristina: Pardon? Alex: To be cutting into brains today. Is he ok to be back? Meredith: Yes. Of course. Derek is fine. Alex: I was there for his carnage in the OR remember? This isn't just any patient today, this is Izzie.Meredith: It's me. Cristina! What's going on? Owen's out there upset. Callie was screaming. She said... Cristina: I'm fine. I'm... I'm fine. Meredith: OH MY GOD! Your neck. I will kill him! He's... Cristina: No, no, no. It was a nightmare. He had a nightmare. Owen: Cristina, please. Is she alright? Meredith, I just need to know that she's alright. Meredith: No, no, no, no, no, no. Cristina, no!
Labels: friends, Grey's Anatomy, love, Quote, TV Series
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
9:28 AM
Old posts and old quotesQuote from LOST season 4 eps 1: The Beginning of The End
Sawyer walks over and joins Locke's side.
Kate: "What are you doing?"
Sawyer: "Same thing I've always done Kate. Surviving."
Quote from House, M.D. season 1 eps Three Stories
"It's a basic truth of the human condition that everybody lies!"
Quote from Grey's Anatomy:
"Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget." Meredith Grey.
Labels: Grey's Anatomy, House MD, LOST, Quote
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
11:15 PM
Stairway To Heaven - Grey's Anatomy Season 5 Episode 13
"Isobel Stevens & Denny Duquette"
Denny (narrating): Heaven. Hell. Limbo. No-one even knows where we're going. Or what's waiting for us when we get there. But the one thing we can say, with absolute certainty, is that there are moments that take us to another place. Moments of Heaven on Earth. And maybe for now, that's all we need to know.
Izzie: Heaven and hell.
Denny: Yes.
Izzie: You're here.
Denny: Yes.
Izzie: No... you're not here for me, you're here for me... you're here for me.
Izzie: Leave... Leave!
Denny: I can go now because, you know, but it's your choice, you get to choose, but Izz if I go I don't know if I can come back. If I go....
Izzie: In a choice between heaven and hell I choose heaven, I choose life! Go!
Denny: I loved you so much... I loved you so much, that when I got to comeback for you I thought... your my heaven, but maybe... I'm your hell.
Izzie: I'm sick... I'm sick aren't I? And instead of telling me ... instead of telling me to save my life... You son of a bitch! You selfish son of a bitch! I hate you... I hate you!
Denny: I didn't know if... that there was a chance, miracles happen. Medical miracles happen everyday! And you said that, you said that yourself!
Denny (narrating): I believe in heaven. I also believe in hell. I've never seen either but I believe they exist. They have to exist. Because without a heaven, without a hell, we're all just headed for limbo.
Labels: Grey's Anatomy, Quote, TV Series
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
12:13 AM
Alex Karev absolutely one of the characters who grew up on this season ( a lot)... After Rebecca, his psychotic girlfriend, leaves him, he's kinda confuse to find. Where is the love and who? As flashes are going before his eyes, he couldn't think any better. And then come another lonely soul. It is her, Isobel Stevens. So his past is again interfering himself. So, it is true that true love will never go anywhere else, at least when she's just two rooms away... No matter what they called it, best friends or whatever.
Alex: Listen. You had that heart patient and it reminded you of Denny and how bad you felt when you were lying on that bathroom floor. I get that! I get that you're scared. But you're not going to have to feel like that again. Because I'm not going to die, Izz. And I'm not gonna cheat on you, and I'm not gonna go anywhere! 'Cause, I think you're my best shot at... I think with you... you make me better. You make me wanna BE better. You make me want to be good. And I think I can. With you. I think I can. So I'm not going anywhere, and you can stop hiding. And if you wanna be scared that's okay just be scared with me. Be scared while you scrub in with me on my first solo surgery. Okay?
Izzie: You love me.
And then she came, and then all doubts seemed to fade away. They knew it.
Izzie: And I know you care about me too and it's not too late for us.
Alex: Get outta my room.
Izzie: Admit it. I know you care about me too I know you do. I care about you. I care about you. I care about you. I care about you. I care about you! I-
Well, at least it was before the old fiance came back from the dead...
Denny: I'm really starting to not like that guy.
Denny: Enough!
Labels: Alex Karev, Grey's Anatomy, Holiday, Izzie Stevens, review, TV Series
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
11:28 PM