Break Up
This is a completely utterly random thoughts which does not relate with any kind of real life. But this is inspired by an acceptable beautiful story of other life, fictional case, other people, other place, different time, other story, another selves. I just made them a pretty words though. Been up all night, listening to your voice
I feel it started to fade away
With any kind of possibility
Then you drift away
I'm thinking of you, solely
I don't ever want to forget you
The best part and your worst, only
I always want to miss you
My weary soul is aching
Your presence is all I ever need
There's nothing else I can't do
I just need to hear you sing
For a moment I thought you were there
Been calling up your name
Unanswered question brings me memories
Seeing your innocent eyes, my bliss
Your dreamy touch lingers
Songs you wrote left me unbroken
Love you gave shaped a smile
I wish you the best, I guess
One day I will see you
My heart stays missing you
Dear lover, I will let you go
But a part of me still adore you so
Labels: love, thoughts
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
2:50 PM
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N.U.M.B.
I just realized that:George O'Malley died. He died.He got hit by a bus. And he died.You know, I feel as complicated as "I don't watch Korean dramas, don't ask me about them. Just ask me how George O'Malley died and how I felt about it."I lied. I always thought that instead of "two is better than one", I think "one is better than two".And if you ask me about that again. I'm gonna press charges.!Labels: destruction, habit, thoughts
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7:32 PM
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You Complete Me
"You complete me" is stated by either SOAB like Joker or family man like Jerry McGuirre. Trust me.Labels: Quote
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11:01 AM
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I'm Scared
“Maybe we’re not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes to simply be human. Maybe, we’re thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we’re thankful for the things we’ll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.”
Meredith Grey
“There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back."
Lucas Scott“Just when you think it can’t get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can’t get any better, it can.”
Nicholas Sparks
Love of mine, someday you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
“The best gift I ever got was for Christmas when I was ten – my very first suture kit. I used it until my fingers bled, and then I tried to use it to stitch up my fingers. It put me on the path to becoming a surgeon. My point is sometimes the best gifts come in really surprising packages."
Meredith Grey
Labels: Life, Quote, thoughts
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10:10 AM
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Doesn't Mean Anything
I wanted to cry out loud
And I couldn't
I was trapped in those small four-walls room
With no one, nothing
My hands are trembled
The sad horrifying score was playing on
Sounds I couldn't resist and terrible images went on
Home had been so far away
No one could hear me as I'm alone
I'm so sorry I let you down
Tears couldn't stream down my pale face
As I held them back
Instead I put a smile one
I wanted to tell you everything but I couldn't
You fought so hard to believe in me
These silver lining would ruin everything
That you and I built so long ago
No one could hear me as I'm alone
I'm so sorry I let you down
Labels: destruction, Life, poetry
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5:00 PM
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Say Goodbye
Dear blog,
I haven't spoken with you in such a long time
Particularly when I need someone or even something to talk about what happened in these past few months.
Frankly, I did change a lot.
I guess meet some people make me notice. I guess get in touch with them truly change how I am and how I react through even worse circumstances.
But now things are blurry again. I fell apart and no one seems to follow.
My parents used to think I'm 12 instead of 21.
Father convinced me that I have to get the best, but in order to get that far I have to do everything I could. Strangely he always thinks 'everything' includes in our comfort zone.
Mother, on the other hand, still consider that I'm a baby. So she heard everything father said and not giving another complaints.
It's just totally wrong!
I realized, we can't choose our parents. They are give to us as we are to them.
Nothing's gonna change that.
So blaming them and the whole clan is never gonna work.
You know, but lived far away from them got me thinking lot and a lot more.
I am me.
I actually matters to them a lot more than I think.
But it's my every own right and chances to do a lot more.
When they just told me not to do so.
You seriously won't believe my parents.
The idea of me working on television industry might be their worst, particularly in this country.
Where in here you might always be judged by your outer side.
So I'm asking how this would happen? Will I ready to cross some lines?
So many people laughed out loud like in front of my face when I told them I wanna work on television industries.
They might not understand how am I gonna survive. Or people just considered me as a dumb-ass who went to uni just to get a degree. Perhaps they think I was a lame chinese who wants to be an entertainer in her own country.
They thought I will do some marketing-sellings or being a Public Relations.
Which is not the path that I wanted.
They can't distinguish anyway. *I am so gonna slap them in the face!
I just want to rip off their ear by scream and say that I would've never thought of working on this country.
But I just don't want my parents to be upset that they cannot send me overseas and make me happy.
So I finally learned to let go of some cruel face I am not supposed to get.
Now I've been wondering those questions.
Am I even on the right track? Will I finally get what I fought for? Am I good enough?
I am not ready to say goodbye to future career. It seems so far away I cannot reach it.
I dropped so many tears to fight for it.
I am broken-hearted and nothing could fix it.
Dreams.
Does it even matter to you?
Does this even matter to me?
Do I matter to you?
I'm not ready if I lose all my dreams that I've build and I've dreamed at night.
I don't want to say goodbye.
But you're so vague I can't see you.
When I can't hold you in my hands,
when you are impossible to reach
when they won't agree with you and with me
when you are way too far, too devious, too painful,
it might be the right time to say,
let me let you go
If I seem distant
Baby I am
Words are like scissors in your hands
And there’s no script to follow
So I just close my eyes
That way it won’t hurt so much
When we say goodbye
-Katharine McPhee-
Labels: destruction, Life, thoughts, truth
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
10:20 PM
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I Write Sins Not Tragedies
I chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" - Panic! At The Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies
Simply said, but the whole things can be cleared
So many people who consider us subordinate and darkened
They suddenly knock us off by telling us "Yeah, I know" or "what is wrong with you?"
No you don't, you won't.
Look at them in the eye and said that you're not fine, everybody isn't fine
How shallow other people
Just leave us like a caveman
It might take a hundred years
Leave us and we will talk until we're ready
Don't act like you know everything that happened before our eyes
People have no idea what we've been through
So close the goddamn door, mind your own businesses and shut your eyes
Labels: Lyrics, poetry, Quote
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11:22 PM
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Misguided Ghosts
Paramore - Misguided Ghosts
1, 2, 3, 4
I am going away for a while
I'll be back don't try and follow me
I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm tryin' to find my place
It might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes,
And run from them
From them
With no direction
We'll run from them
From them
With no conviction
I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me
And we just go in circles
Now I'm told that this is life
Pain is just a simple compromise
So we can we get what we want out of it
Someone care to classify
Broken hearts and twisted minds
So i can find, someone to rely on,
And run to them
to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not
Useless
We are just
Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me
They echo me in circles. Labels: Lyrics, Music, song
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10:42 PM
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♥ Demi Lovato - World Of Chances ♥
You've got a face for a smile, you know.
A shame you waste it when you're breaking me slowly.
But I've got a world of chances, for you.
I've got a world of chances, for you.
I've got a world of chances, chances that you're burning through.
I've got a paper and pen.
I go to write a goodbye and that's when I know I've
got a world of chances for you.
I've got a world of chances, for you.
I've got a world of chances, chances that you're burning through.
Ohhh, I'm going my own way.
My faith has lost its strength again.
& Ohhhh, it's been too hard to say we've fallen off the edge again.
We're at the end.
We're at the end.
Maybe you'll call me someday.
Hear the operator say the numbers no good and that she had a world of chances for you.
She had a world of chances, for you.
She had a world of chances, chances you were burning through.
Chances you were burning through.
Chances you were burning through.
You've got a face for a smile, you know.
Labels: Lyrics, Music, song
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12:06 AM
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Come In With The Rain
♥ Taylor Swift - Come In With The Rain ♥
I could go back to every laugh
But I don't want to go there anymore
And I know all the steps
Up to your door
But I don't want to go there anymore
Talk to the wind, talk to the sky, talk to the man with the reasons why
And let me know what you find
I'll leave my window open
Cause I'm to tired tonight to call your name
Just know im right here hoping
that you'll come in with the rain
I could stand up
And sing you a song
But I don't want to have to go that far
And I, I've got you down, I know you by heart
And you don't even know where I start
Talk to your self, Talk to the tears, talk to the man who put you here
And don't wait for the sky to clear
I've watched you so long, screamed your name
I don't know what else I can say
I'll leave my window open
Cause I'm to tired tonight for all these games
Just know I'm right here hoping
that you'll come in with the rain
I could go back to every laugh
But i don't want to go there anymore
Labels: Lyrics, Music, song
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11:33 PM
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I am Me, with all my courage, ego, hope, and my own dream, together with all my life, heart, my mind, and fate.. Somehow, I'm surviving, which humanize me.. Because of all the trying and struggling, sometimes I fall and some days God lift me up... 
