Eniwei, life isn't so random anyway at the beginning of the day, but it is if you're talking about when-the-stars-is-up time...
Some people really think that I couldn't be happy even a minutes in my life. Trust me, I've met some person who couldn't be happy for just a sec. No, seriously?! If those people really think that I'm a weirdo, they should start to bow their heads down and say some prayers, good ones...
For the past few months I thought God really set everyone's lives. God doesn't make a plan of giving anyone with a great effort to have a CHF or even CVA.... Or someone with very less effort to have 'em..
So that's why I know I can feel His plans over us all. He put me into these great place, and He put anyone else into a far better place. It is a better plan for everyone...Whether we realize it or not. And I have to believe, life isn't so random anyway! Life is great, more than " just good". Life is full of colours and life is something we shouldn't waste or miss. I just have to know it better so I could learn and realize also hoping everyone else do the same thing as me...I'd love to begin loving my life and loving all these circumstances. I'd love to begin loving my sickness and my flaws, my wound and my pain.
Dedicated to:
People who falls down harder than they think it should be
People who doesn't feel pain as they fall harder
People who finally realize life isn't so random anyway (or haven't realized)
People who struggles 'til the end
People who give so much and haven't pleased anyone
People who thinks life shouldn't be random
People who isn't happy
People who is happy with all they've achieved even it's not their biggest effort
People who cries in the middle of the night thinking they could be better than these
People who needs more time
People who says enough is enough
People who can barely know themselves in these past few months
All my friends that I truly missed, only you can complete me.
"God love your soul and your aching bones.."
11:48 PM
11:48 PM
I am Me, with all my courage, ego, hope, and my own dream, together with all my life, heart, my mind, and fate.. Somehow, I'm surviving, which humanize me.. Because of all the trying and struggling, sometimes I fall and some days God lift me up... 
